vineri, 26 februarie 2016

Din seria: "citeste asta cand..."

Here are twenty powerful secrets that will help you form meaningful relationships with people:
1.         When two people meet, the prize always goes to the one with the most self-insight. He will be calmer, more confident, more at ease with the other.
2.         Never permit the behavior of other people to tell you how you feel.
3.         Pay little attention to what people say or do. Instead, try to see their innermost motive for speaking and acting.
4.         Any friendship requiring the submission of your original nature and dignity to another person is all wrong.
5.         Mystically speaking, there is no difference between you and another person. This is why we cannot hurt another without hurting ourselves, nor help another without helping ourselves.
6.         When we are free of all unnecessary desires toward other people, we can never be deceived or hurt.
7.         You take a giant step toward psychological maturity when you refuse to angrily defend yourself against unjust slander. For one thing, resistance disturbs your own peace of mind.
8.         You understand others to the exact degree that you really understand yourself. Work for more self-knowledge.
9.         Do not be afraid to fully experience everything that happens to you in your human relations, especially the pains and disappointments. Do this and everything becomes clear at last.
10.       The individual who really knows what it means to love has no anxiety when his love is unseen or rejected.
11.       If you painfully lose a valuable friend, do not rush out at once for a replacement. Such action prevents you from examining your heartache and breaking free of it.
12.       Do not be afraid to be a nobody in a social world. This is a deeper and richer truth than appears on the surface.
13.       Every unpleasant experience with another person is an opportunity to see people as they are, not as we mistakenly idealize them. The more unpleasant the other person is, the more he can teach you.
14.       You can be so wonderfully free from a sense of injury and injustice that you are surprised when you hear others complain of them.
15.       We cannot recognize a virtue in another person that we do not possess in ourselves. It takes a truly loving and patient person to recognize those virtues in another.
16.       Do not mistake desire for love. Desire leaves home in a frantic search for one gratification after another. Love is at home with itself.
17.       There are parts of you that want the loving life and parts that do not. Place yourself on the side of the positive forces: do all you can to aid and encourage them.
18.       You must stop living timidly from fixed fears of what others will think of you and of what you will think of yourself.
19.       Do not contrive to be a loving person: work to be a real person. Being real is being loving.
20.       The greatest love you could ever offer to another is to so transform your inner life that others are attracted to your genuine example of goodness.

duminică, 14 februarie 2016

My boy is on fire. :D

We have plans... a lot of plans. Starting this summer, I will be (finally) with my boy. I like hear him planning our things together, I like hearing him telling me that he misses me and he can't wait go us being together. I can't wait to start our life together. Even if it is a little bit scary, I thin that we will handle it.

I find myself smile during the day thinking about him, or remembering the words he said a day before. I'm totally lost and in love with him and I won't hide it.

Just us. I want to travel with you. I want you to hug me. I want you to be mine forever. I want you to teach me how to love you, as you already do. I want to hold your hand, and never let it go.

It sounds crazy, huh? I know. But I'm really in love with him. I hope my future self will understand when I will read this post again. I know, I know. I'm already seeing myself. Rolling my eyes and  thinking "such big lies.: But I'm telling you, future me. The feeling I get now when I'm with him, is like nothing I've felt before. So, accept it.At this exact moment, you loved that little person.  

luni, 8 februarie 2016

Citeste si reciteste articolul asta de cate ori este nevoie.

Acesta este unul dintre cele mai bune articole pe care le-am citit.

M-a luminat și m-a făcut să înțeleg lucruri esențiale... De câte ori am îndoieli, ar trebui să îl recitesc. Să-l memorez într-un sfârșit.

"Copilul interior al persoanei respective se simte satisfăcut și împlinit de prezența celeilalte persoane în viața lui și invers. Unul simte ”ah, am o mamă”, celălalt simte la fel ”ah, am o mamă” și astfel amândoi ”au câte o mamă” și acum se pot relaxa. Și da, într-adevăr, în această stare de relaxare se poate construi ceva frumos. Dar datorită relaxării poate lua naștere ceva frumos, nu datorită faptului că cei doi sunt împreună. Dacă s-ar putea relaxa individual printr-o altă modalitate, oricare dintre cei doi parteneri ar putea obține același rezultat. Relaxarea este cea care creează spațiu pentru ”minuni”, nu prezența celeilalte persoane. Dacă am învăța fiecare să ne relaxăm în mod individual, fără celălalt, am obține același lucru și am descoperi că, de fapt, suntem compleți exact așa cum suntem și că nu avem nevoie de altcineva pentru a ne putea simți împliniți."

duminică, 7 februarie 2016

I'm busy being useless.

Yes, fuck-my-feelings indeed. I don't really know what's wrong with me. I'm fucking childish (and not in a cute way) and stupid. and especially boring. My mind is going in places that shouldn't go. My tears are all over my face. I'm so full of my shit. I know how to ruin everything. I know how to be the most stupid person on earth. I want to make him mad on me and to make him explode... Yea, I think that's the next step. Me making him so mad so he will be done. He loves me... but I really like to make him tell me that and if he doesn't, I am going crazy and act like a stupid kid. I am so down these days... I don't know what to do not to cry. I am so alone... I want just to cry and to end every kind of communication with everyone... and on the other side, I want to be happy, to be around my friends. I miss the days when we were all together. I miss our laugh, our trips, our group. Why we need to grow up? I want to escape. I want this period to end... but.... isn't that one of my principles? I shouldn't wait a period to end... I should make the best of it.... and to enjoy... but I make excuses... A lot of them...  What would I remember after these months? A big hole... A black one... full of shit. Full of my moods and my stupidity. It's a period that I won't remember as an optimistic one... and... I know that I  will regret... I will regret the fact that I let something escape instead of make the best of it....

I miss her too... why I am here and she's there? Why I have always friends that are going away? I know she didn't abandoned me... but I feel so unsafe.... I'm so afraid of losing everything... I'm just broken by all the things I do...

I am useless right now.