Why everyone can play with her heart? Why there is always that kind of need of attention, care and closeness towards anyone that gives her some kind of words? She has a great relationship, but she seem to not appreciate what she has and how important is her lover and how much he helps her "situation"... she seems broken and undecided in the inside, but she tries to cover this appearance and... sometimes she can... but she should focus on the important things in live, the things that matter, the things that will help her pursue her dreams... but she keeps on failing and stop for anyone that promises warm hugs and lots of love. Why does she need that? She already has that and besides the fever and the closeness of a moment with some other guy, she has love and dedication... but she's too stupid... please wake up. You need to focus on the middle and long term rather than short term pleasure...
I feel that I need that kind of touch - the first time kind of touch. I want to feel desired and to have my own choices instead of taking into account the feelings of other people. I am already free, but seems like i want to be free-er... people are never satisfied with the things they own and already have... they always want to destroy everything... or wait... it's only me that wants to destroy everything I have... and I know I will regret, in the morning, or tomorrow, or next week... but I keep on making mistakes. I don't really understand why I am this down with my thinking and motivation... I should be fine. I want to be alone, but at the same time I want lots of attention. I don't know what I really want. I should just... stop... being so... pathetic, childish and such a believer.
Wake the fuck up.
